That’s right…. I’ve been spermed up. Now we wait. At least the timing is good so that I will not find out until after my family vacation to Disneyland next week. Don’t want that ruined.
I would like to say here what a different experience I have had at this clinic. My other clinic was full of warm, caring people – and I appreciated all of them. That’s why I stayed so long.
But here, I have so much data. And they are warm, kind, and caring – but they are also full of information and proactive! In 2.5 years, I have never had a doctor or nurse ask me what my plans were if my cycle failed. Until now – this doctor asked me right away so she could be ready, the nurses could be ready and they could come up with a plan for me. Of course, this is it. There’s nothing else – but the official word is that we are taking a 6 month break. So, that’s what I told her. I can’t see the wife supporting me doing this again. Even if I really want to. I suppose my hope is that in 6 months, I won;t want to. But we will see how it goes.
I wish I could afford just one more IVF…just one more. At the new clinic, where they do it differently. I feel like I could be more at peace walking away if I could do that. but money doesn’t grow on trees, and I don’t have any family I could borrow it from. Or embryos – hey universe – I’m still hoping for some donated embryos!
And maybe, I suppose there’s an infinitesimal chance, that this will work, and that conversation won’t ever have to happen. But I have had enough failure to know that my chances are exceedingly slim.
So, here we go. It’s wait time. Now to focus on Disneyland….