I think The Wife is feeling a little anxious for me to test. Which, of course, I am as well. But today is only 9 DPO. We could still get a false positive from the HCG shots. It’s also just way early. I *might* test tomorrow, just for shits because I really don’t think I will test while I am on my trip. I think if I get a BFN, I will immediately cease to be functional. As much as I have tried to prepare myself for the moment when we no longer have the option of a genetic sibling, I don’t think I will handle it well. I know myself – I will not be functional.
Working a conference is like spending several days on stage. Every interaction is playing to your audience. You have to be a star the whole time. You are the queen on improv and someone is always watching. Non-functional is not an option.