Malaise

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I’m sad today. Just generally sad. No mitigating factors, just sad. I guess there are good days and bad days in the mental recovery and this is one of the bad ones. It came out of nowhere. Actually, it didn’t come out of nowhere.

I found out this week that before we can TTC again, I have to wait until CD 22-25 of a new cycle. And despite the fact that I have finished my birth control pills, my body isn’t delivering me a new cycle. Which means I am still at least 22 days away from actively starting anything, and that’s from whenever my body decides to start a new cycle. Which means that it will likely be mid-May before we get another try.

The thought of moving on is part of what helped me cope. And now knowing we just have to keep waiting…well, I’m not handling it so well.

So, today I am sad.

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